A T A R A X I A? MY HOPE AND WISH! 🫨🫤

 I've had a thousands of reasons to give up.

There have been times I have spoken against God.

 There were times I just wanted to end it all. 

But in the midst of all that, God still gave me a million reasons why I shouldn't give up! 

I hope that when you see me, you'll look beyond all my goofiness and empathize with me. 

I am not always the funny, inspirational, courageous and positive person you see when I'm present. 

Sometimes, I wish for death. There has been instances where I was self harming, just to die. 

 And a great amount of my time is spent envying the little things most of you reading this take for granted; your carefree spirit, a place you all call home, a family to return to after a hard day's work.

I am nothing but an outcast and a social pariah - trying to create a home in myself so that I can have myself to return to, always! 

A troubled soul in his quest to achieve an absolute ATARAXIA.

With mixed feelings,

Freeman.